Tonight me and Sammy decided we are better off apart. It’s been a few rocky months now between us both and with uni starting again and her Finland exchange course coming up it just seems the logically thing to do as horrible as it feels for us both right now. Her uni course is so important to her and to me that we agree she doesn’t need the added pressure of a relationship that is causing more trouble than it should be.
I want to remember the positives though and splitting up and staying apart is going to be the hardest time in my life. We’ve been together for 4 years and I can honestly say that it’s the best relationship I’ve been in. We’ve done so many awesome things and had so many great experiences together. I took her on her first aeroplane, abroad on holiday to Majorca and although I spent the short 4 days we were actually there in the freezing cold bath burnt to a crisp wishing I could take my skin off to stop the itching, it was still a brilliant time. We’ve really grown as people together from young teenagers just finishing sixth form not knowing at all what the hell we were going do to how we are now, Sam doing brilliantly in work and in uni and me at least learning who I am as a person. We’ve rented our first flat which happened to be a disaster because of the scary people living there, To getting our second ‘apartment’ which has been a blast and we really did live a life of luxury here even if we couldn’t afford to eat sometimes!. I just wanted to write this really because I wanted to remember how I felt and the hopefully it’ll serve as a reminder for all the amazing times that we’ve had together. I will always love her with all my heart no matter what happens in my life, she has been my world and in years to come I always remember the times the ups and downs and I can say hand on heart I would never have wished for anything else.